Today i started work, it sucked. it just made me miss home more. I thought by trying to move on 'id forget all about you - but i was wrong. i use to pray every night that I could be strong enough to live with out you,but your all i think of. Last week i was sad everyday, he was off to school making himself better, and im stuck at damn walmart. Doind the same 'ol thing ive always done. Is this going to be 3 years of hell?
Does anyone know how to solve home sick problems? i cant go anywhere, he always has to study, i have done every photo book i have? i hate being lazy and wathcinG tv! the more depressed i become i dont want to exercise, i just am getting fat! I hate my life - Why cant i be happy? oh well tomorrow is another day at the great walmart- and he gets to go to school! how come i never got to quit work and just go to school - this just so sucks - why does he get to be successful-
So i ask is it wrong to pray to die? i know that suicide is wrong and i think about it nbut i just couldnt. I just want out if this misery. I just want to go in my sleep, just let me die -please. i dont know why im here- i freaking work at walmart - have no kids and have done nothing with my life -
SO NOW I LAY ME DOWN TO SLEEP, pLEASE LET ME DIE BEFORE I WAKE, i PRAY THE LORD MY SOUL TO TAKE..
yes it is wrong to ask God to die because it is like slapping his face with your lack of faith.
ReplyDeleteRead, be intelligent and blog as much. You can earn in blogging and writing online articles. You can design clothes and stuff. be good on things that you are good at. Life is well is you realize that you are worth all the attention.
About getting fat, you can exercise or dance. you may get yourself a fitness cards and follow even three cards a day. talk to several people who are depressed. You may not be happy now, but try to pretend until it becomes your life.