Today i started work, it sucked. it just made me miss home more. I thought by trying to move on 'id forget all about you - but i was wrong. i use to pray every night that I could be strong enough to live with out you,but your all i think of. Last week i was sad everyday, he was off to school making himself better, and im stuck at damn walmart. Doind the same 'ol thing ive always done. Is this going to be 3 years of hell?
Does anyone know how to solve home sick problems? i cant go anywhere, he always has to study, i have done every photo book i have? i hate being lazy and wathcinG tv! the more depressed i become i dont want to exercise, i just am getting fat! I hate my life - Why cant i be happy? oh well tomorrow is another day at the great walmart- and he gets to go to school! how come i never got to quit work and just go to school - this just so sucks - why does he get to be successful-
So i ask is it wrong to pray to die? i know that suicide is wrong and i think about it nbut i just couldnt. I just want out if this misery. I just want to go in my sleep, just let me die -please. i dont know why im here- i freaking work at walmart - have no kids and have done nothing with my life -
SO NOW I LAY ME DOWN TO SLEEP, pLEASE LET ME DIE BEFORE I WAKE, i PRAY THE LORD MY SOUL TO TAKE..
